Thanks so much for all your love in my last entry. I know it was a bit deep but I just wanted to share how I’ve been doing.
I’m pretty blessed that whenever or whatever it is, the hubs is always there to listen and offer me love. I told him last week how I felt sad about my past but not depressed. I don’t look back and wonder “I wish…” or “Why did it have to happen to me?”. I look back and look at those memories and the memories itself makes me sad. But I am proud that I got out of that turmoil and have a wonderful husband to start a family with.
It’s been a long time since I shed tears because of my past and I cried a lot after seeing my photographer. The hubs just held me and told me that he understands, he really does, and that he loves me. We’re both so excited to start our new family together and try our best to be wonderful parents. I know we’re going to try our hardest, that’s for sure!
The hubs, being the awesome guy that he is, picked up some sweets for me to cheer me up. And it worked out perfectly since these weren’t too sweet at all! I told him how I’ve been feeling stressed from everyone telling (CONVINCE) me about their way of parenthood, how my choices are wrong and then the whole remembering my past thing. And he surprised me with a box of treats, that is themed for Chinese New Year! It’s the year of the snake (dubbed “little dragon”) and it’ll always mean something special to us since Boram will be born this year.
The hubs made a resolution to lose weight and be healthy this year. It was so sweet because he said he wants to set a good example for Boram. So we’ve been eating healthier, working out often and getting plenty of sleep. Sleep… haha, I laugh because all my mommy friends say to get it while we can! So, we’re following their advice!
There isn’t much I can do at the gym so I mostly speed walk or use the stationary bike while the hubs runs. I have noticed that I’ve been feeling more tired these days but I’m hoping that all this exercising will help me with delivery. It is fun to see myself in the mirror at the gym and see my baby in my belly. I can’t wait till we get to meet him. (Have I said that enough?)
I wanted to say a huge thank you again to all of you who reached out. Your positive energy, words and kindness has always been such an encouragement for me. I know I’m a strong girl but I do have my weak moments, but I can tell you this…
I will be the best damn mother EVER. I have SO MUCH LOVE TO GIVE.