29 Weeks and so much love
Hi everyone! We are back from Hong Kong! That’s going to have to a WHOLE other post because I took so many pictures, ate so much and saw so many friends. And here is my 29 week belly, I took this picture with my friend S, who is also pregnant (due 3 weeks after I am) and since she’s a private person, I have covered her face. Doesn’t it look like our bellies are kissing?
Umm… where do I begin? I’ve been telling all my friends how I believe that my husband and little baby boy saved my life. In different and wonderfully complimentary ways. I always felt a lack in the family department, mostly because it’s been a lot of years since my abusive family and I parted ways. Trust me, it was for the better. But I always had a little sore, sad spot in my heart that I didn’t have a family like everyone else seems to have.
My husband really has shown me love, unconditional and the kind that has healed me. He has helped me leave and understand that abuse is NEVER ok. He has always been kind, patient and I can’t believe how much he loves me. Every single day I feel incredibly blessed by him, his character, his wisdom and his loving heart. He has helped me gain my strength, confidence and has gotten me to a place of pure happiness. I am forever thankful for that.
Boram has given me so much hope. He is giving me the opportunity to have a family of my own, to be the mother I wish I had and to have a family that I can protect and love. Every single time I feel him kick, I tell him that I love him and that I will always love him. “Oliver, don’t fear me ok? I will always be here for you. I will never abandon you, NEVER. I will always LOVE you.”
During this pregnancy, I had little bouts of sadness. Thinking other women who have their own parents, who are excited for their daughter. Who send little gifts for their grandkids and someone who thinks of the pregnant woman. But then my friends continually spoil Boram and I with so much love.
In HK our friends Alice and Fyn gave us these adorable gifts for little Boram. Loving the socks, I wear converse sneakers all the time so they thought it would be cute for him to have something like his mommy. The onesie set is made of all organic materials and is reversible!
Our other HK friends Salina and Rico (Plus their daughter Sophie, and her little sister in her mum’s belly) gave us this set for little Boram. It’s Sophie’s favorite set so they thought that our son would love it. They also said that it’s made of all organic materials as well! Salina is the girl in the very first picture, where I cut out the face. Our baby bellies kissed a lot while I was in Hong Kong.
We came home last night from our flight from Hong Kong and a package from Jackie, Joel and their daughter Claire was waiting for us! The books are favorites of little Claire so they wanted to be sure that we had it for Boram. I teared a bit from the card that Jackie wrote. She has heard me vent about how hard it was to get pregnant, how difficult it is with fertility issues. I was blown away by how generous they are and just look how adorable everything is!
And then today. My goodness – - – I was so surprised when the delivery guy came and I saw a package from May (a Weddingbee sister), her husband and their adorable daughter Emilia. As I took out each one from the box, I started to cry. I cried and cried so much. I was thinking… my goodness… my son… look how many people LOVE you. How could I possibly be sad that I don’t have a family? I have a family!!! Look at all of my generous friends, who send gifts, tell us how much they love us and support me through this pregnancy?
May sent footed onesies (which I don’t have a lot of!), things to help once the baby is here and delicious caramel eggs. (I already ate half of them haha) I sent May a text saying how I’m a sobbing mess, crying and how happy she has made me. I am a super ball of emotions. :”)
Please excuse my burst of love here but I think my son is going to be more than ok. He has so many uncles, aunties and “cousins” that love him… excited to meet him already. I am seriously so BLESSED.
Thank you friends for reminding me that I am loved. And even more that my little baby is LOVED. You all spoil me so much and I can’t thank you enough.
I feel so…. weepy. I have tears of happiness and it definitely comes from a full, blessed heart. I love you all.