I wanted to write my “thanksgiving” post sooner but I’ve been soooooo tired and busy with Ollie that it’s been impossible to write out my thoughts until now.
I am so thankful for so many things. Obviously, family. I always wanted to have a family of my own and while I did have that with the hubs, I wanted more. I wanted children and I always wished that I could be a mother. And here we are… I have a beautiful, baby boy.
Even on my hardest days, the days where nothing goes right with motherhood and I have a screaming baby who can’t be soothed… I still feel blessed. Even the days where I feel like I could pass out at any second because Ollie didn’t sleep the entire week, I am still so happy. Even when I feel like the biggest slob because I don’t wear makeup, or shower sometimes because I am THAT tired and rather just go to bed early… I am lucky.
I have a baby. I am a mother. We are a family and it is FULL of love. FULL! FULL, I tell ya.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s damn hard. DAMN HARD. When people tell you being a parent is hard. THEY LIE. IT IS THE HARDEST THING EVER. But I wouldn’t trade it for the world. Even now, Ollie is not sleeping, screaming and broken out from a rash from sprouting his first tooth. I hold him, I kiss him and tell him I’m here for him. Oh and also… I have absolutely no idea if I’m doing things right. (ha)
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I love being a mom. Every time I see a smile on Ollie’s face, all of the hardship goes away and I get my burst of energy. Is he an easy baby? I don’t know, maybe not the most difficult but definitely not easy. But he is a sweet hearted, warm and kind. I can see that already, which makes me so proud. I’m thankful to be a mother, a wife and for our family.
Motherhood… parenthood would be so much more difficult if I didn’t have my husband. He is the BEST. He never complains, he always tells me to sleep in when Ollie wakes up before us and especially when I didn’t sleep the night before. He finds ways to make me laugh, feels special and even thoughtful little/big gifts to show his appreciation. He really is a take charge kind of guy and he really does everything he can (except nursing cuz obviously he can’t breastfeed him lol) with Ollie while he is home. I’m thankful to have this man as my husband, as Ollie’s father and I love him so much.
I’m also thankful for my support of friends from so many different places. I have my bestie (HJ) who talks to me almost on a daily basis. I also have my NCMC girls who have shown so much love, my NYC friends (and there are SO many of you who have spoiled us), my weddingbee girls (and you know who you are!) who have provided me with so much support from our engagement – to marriage – infertility – surgery – pregnancy – and now motherhood. I am over the moon thankful for my HK friends here, who have made our transition to our new city so easy. I love it here. I love HK, I love being an expat and thank God that Ollie has the best care because of it.
I’m thankful for so many other things too. Having a roof over our head, food in our bellies and having the life that we have. So many more things than this of course, to be thankful for but mommy brain is settling in.
It is with a gracious heart that I thank you too. Those that have been reading my blog (whether commented or silent), you’ve been here with me too. Through my ups and my downs… my excitement and the mundane. Thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for the encouragements and advice.
ps: forgive any grammatical, spelling etc errors. I am sooooo tired and autocorrect + mommy brain + falling asleep while writing makes it really difficult to write clearly. xo