OMG I’m Knitting & Other Stuff

I stumbled across a yarn shop while walking around with the hubs. I’ve been having so much trouble finding cotton yarn, suddenly I find it everywhere! These packs were on sale and super-duper cheap, around $4 each. Normally they are a lot more but I’m guessing that nobody wants these colors so they’re making room for new colors. I took them because they make cute baby clothes colors. I’ve been working on some crochet projects and guess what? Uh, I totally made it too small for my nieces. Sigh.
I love the look of knitted items for summer since they are thin compared to crochet. I started crocheting a dress for my nieces. I hope I can finish these on time, I feel rather stupid that I spent all that time on their clothes and then found it too small. I really don’t know baby sizes at all, I need a baby at all times, like I did with my niece Claire. It was so easy since she was always right next to me and I could always measure as I go. Since I’ve been in Shanghai, I have no models to compare sizes to and I am HORRIBLE at following patterns. I usually wing it.
Speaking of children. Emails are trickling in from friends who are pregnant with their second babies. I am so happy for them, being able to get pregnant is such a blessing. I wish I could also experience that joy, I wish I were pregnant. I’m eagerly awaiting my (late) period so that I can get the polyp removed so that I can have a child. I try to be as positive as I can but I have my breakdown days where I just can’t understand WHY my body is the way it is. But then the doctor did tell me that once the polyp is removed, I should be able to get pregnant. I semi fear, what if that doesn’t work too? What will I do then?
I’ll stop freaking out for now.
I’ve been walking around a lot with the hubs when he’s free, knitting like a mad woman and I’ve stopped checking my email. Mostly because there’s nothing there when I check it anyway. Also to get a break from constantly checking, though I’m on instagram a lot. Instagram is nice since it’s just pictures of my daily life and I like to look back on it. Even the ones from before we moved here and to see how my life was in NY.
I have two questions for you: Are you working on any crafting projects? Is anyone out there going through infertility?
Two very different questions but I’d like to hear about them, since that’s what is on my mind.



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